finally.
i never thought the day would come again when the light would shine in my heart again. when the rain would fall and i wouldn’t think it matched my misery. i never thought pushing him out of my life would be what is best, but i have found today, that it is. it hurts when i think too hard about it, but when i step back and look at it now, everything is new..everything is fresh and ready for a new start.
i’m ready to move on, to find something new. i’m ready to be inspired and take new chances, and everything i do now, i will look at more intenesly. he was the only constant thing in my life and that is why i took him breaking my heart time and time again, took him making me second place in his life when he was first in mine. i did it because he was the only thing i knew and i was scared to find something new, something better. but now, i am not afraid. i move on now, with more confidence and grace. though discretion and uncertainty lurk in the corners, they no longer dominate my every move.
i can now say, i am different. i am more free. i am willing. and i’m excited and happy for the first time in what has been a very long time.
join me, will you?
